I am sure that your legal, financial and practical problems have contributed to your exhaustion. We need kindness and laughter and companionship in our daily lives. You will make new friends, as well as gain a fresh perspective on your life and a boost to your health and spirits.We need new things to do and companions to do them with. And when you are at home again, think hard about how you want your life to be. Tell your neighbours that you're bored of walking your dog on your own and see if someone would like to come with you. Consciously make an effort to pursue an interest through a day or evening class. Unless you are committed to a rural way of life, think seriously about making your next move to a livelier town where there will be social and cultural opportunities.Yes, you can manage and handle things and look after yourself but you are very unhappy.Something isn't working, even though it may have worked in the past. New behaviour for you would include making a conscious effort to reach out to other people.
Although I entertained a lot when I was married, I think my biggest fault is that I am not a joiner.I am an only child and have no brothers or sisters of my own.